Week Six

[stagemanagers]

[Last week, in It's Curtains, the weather changed, and with it your fortune in Dads. Discord took Salieri out - or perhaps Salieri took Discord out - and left the survivors with that much less impulse control. Nonetheless, a visit from a new friend might have provided a little bit of much-needed hope?

On Sunday morning, you'll find that the other side of the second floor has opened up - as well as the actual intended path to reach the roof garden. You can finally stop climbing up that rope every time you want to have a picnic or secret lover's rendezvous!

Outside, the weather seems to have calmed down. It's sunny again, with rather a lot of clouds. Though it's warm, the atmosphere seems very...still.]


Sunday | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday

(( Be sure to submit your memory regain and your AC for this week! As always, Hester's office hours and the merch booth remain available. ))

Comments

[mayavericks]

[This conversation is quickly becoming dizzying. Or... maybe it's just Maya that's dizzy. It's hard to say.

She pulls up a stool beside Janis and holds out a hand.]

Do you want to tell me what happened?

[fourbutts]

I...

[ She tries to pull her legs up onto the stool, but it's too small and she nearly falls off instead. ]

On Sunday, I... got into a fight with Per. A bad one.

[mayavericks]

[Maya is quick to try and stabilize her, even at the cost of her own balance. She ends up half-slumped over Janis in the process.]

How... bad?

[fourbutts]

I don't know. We both yelled. I just wanted to help, but then we were yelling, and... and...

[ oh this isn't a fun thing to think about. if she were ]

Don't you fucking start! No more commentary!

[ okay, damn. Janis goes back to crying, not really having stopped when she decided to yell at... well, as far as Maya can tell, the air. ]

I'm just scared she hates me now, mostly.

[mayavericks]

[Maya is... certainly startled by that. She leans away on instinct, barely managing to keep hold of Janis's blanket before toppling over.]

She was... very upset yesterday. She remembered losing her teacher, did she not? [Maya starts to bite her lip but. Stops short.] She wanted to end things with me as well, I think. I... refused to let her.

She does not want to be alone, Janis. No matter how much she insists that it's better, this is not what she wants. You just... have to remind her of that much.

[fourbutts]

I... wasn't that nice.

[ Janis swallows, and I don't go into internal dialogue because she's hallucinating me being way more present than I actually am! ]

She... I tried to tell her it wasn't her fault, and of course she didn't listen, but... the way she said it was her fault, then... it's the same logic as me saying B dying was my fault. And she said I don't understand what she's going through, and I snapped at her, and... she left, and we haven't been in the same room since.

[mayavericks]

You two cope very differently, I think. Or maybe it's that you have the best coping skills of the three of us. [Man that therapy chick is really good at what she does.]

She internalizes the blame, much in the way that I do. It is... easier to assign it to ourselves, than to simply say it was another act of fate, another terrible decision forced upon us by this Wizard.

[fourbutts]

No, I'm apparently still pretty fucked up about what happened that night B and I went to look around the stage. Not sure I've done a lot of actual coping at all anymore.

[ "Janis it has been two weeks and you watched a man die" what's your point ]

I just... it's not fair, of course it's not fair, but I'm still mad at her. And I'm mad at myself for being mad at her, and she is definitely still super mad at me.

[mayavericks]

I was not aware that recovery was meant to be so easy. [She shakes her head.] Surely if our roles were reversed, you would say it would be unreasonable for me to expect to past my grief.

[She breathes out faintly.]

You have every right to be angry. And she has every right to be angry with you, too, I think. Moreover, I... think it would be unfair for me to urge you both to reconcile before you are ready. But I hope you will be able to manage it soon. I don't want to see us so divided right now.

[fourbutts]

Look at you, being all reasonable.

[ She sighs. ]

I'm okay to try to make up, but... I think she's, like, really angry at me right now. So.

[mayavericks]

I'm learning from one of the best, you see.

[Maya holds out her hands for Janis to squeeze.]

I can try talking to her first, if you would prefer? At least... get a feel for how she's feeling?

[fourbutts]

I... maybe? I'm going to feel really shitty if she feels really shitty about it.

[mayavericks]

You both already feel -- shitty. There is... no avoiding that.

[fourbutts]

I know, but...

[ She chews on her lip. ]

What if I fucked it up? Like... really fucked it up. I think I accidentally insulted her dead dad.

[mayavericks]

I do not believe that is the case, Janis. We have all been through so much together, and --

[She draws in a breath.]

Before Connor died, I told her she would be responsible for the demise of her friends. And... after all of that, and everything that followed... She still chose to be with me.

You haven't made near the mistakes I have.

[fourbutts]

[ That takes Janis by surprise for a moment, and she looks over at Maya. ]

Well... damn. Look at us, being all imperfect.

[mayavericks]

Who would ever believe it.

[She'll give Janis's hands a little squeeze.]

She will come around. I have to believe as much.