Yeah... it was like my brain realized how scared I was, a-and it tried to remind me that I still have people who loved me, and...
[He takes a shaky breath.]
Those visions were terrifying at first, dad. I felt like everyone was mocking me. Like... like I was at the bottom of a giant hole and everyone was either telling me how much of a failure I was, or...
Or tell me I was doing something good, even though I knew I wasn't. And they were laughing too, like they were making fun of me. Like even though they were trying to encourage me, that they knew I couldn't do anything.
[Another sob escapes him. Spongebob finally started to accept that he does provide a use to the team, but... but those voices in his head still rung sharp. Even though he knows no one was really thinking it, the fact that it felt so real still makes him wonder how much of it is an act.]
cw hallucinations, suicide implications
[He takes a shaky breath.]
Those visions were terrifying at first, dad. I felt like everyone was mocking me. Like... like I was at the bottom of a giant hole and everyone was either telling me how much of a failure I was, or...
Or tell me I was doing something good, even though I knew I wasn't. And they were laughing too, like they were making fun of me. Like even though they were trying to encourage me, that they knew I couldn't do anything.
[Another sob escapes him. Spongebob finally started to accept that he does provide a use to the team, but... but those voices in his head still rung sharp. Even though he knows no one was really thinking it, the fact that it felt so real still makes him wonder how much of it is an act.]
Like... like I was just a simple sponge.