'Cause I wouldn't leave him alone! [ It's the first time Peregrine's raised her voice today. Not very loud? But still. ] He didn't even— even think we'd go through with it! He thought it was crazy. But I pushed it. I didn't listen— mom, Lexy, everyone— they had to lead a...a fucking search party. And I didn't think— he walked us out, farther than any of us, and if we were having trouble—

I let it happen. I shoulda looked for him. I shoulda listened. You don't get to tell me— I had to have been able to do something.