[ She practically tackles him, the instant she pushes past the doctors into his room. She starts to apologize, but he laughs and laughs. "Per, you gonna say you're sorry for some snow?" She stays by his side, until she has to step away.
"Hey, do you wanna come with us to go see Howl tonight?"
It all comes crashing down.
Peregrine once again wakes up in Rodgers Dorm gasping in pain. She wakes up with tears in her eyes. She wakes up, finally, finally—
Knowing what it all cost.
In the end. "This is the way the world actually works. There's no justice or karma or good or bad, it's just meaningless pain." Despite it all. "I feel like I'm this curse—" It was luck. "—like anything I touch or love—" It was unearned luck. "—is cursed and it's just gonna keep happening—" And despite the few beautiful bits of hope she's let herself grasp onto— "—again and again and again—"
Peregrine stays in bed, curled in her cloak and blankets, and she tries very, very hard not to let anyone hear her as she sobs.
She wants, very badly, to put her all into investigating. It's not storming, and the power's not on, and now more than ever they need to ban together and do everything they can to find a way out, to survive. But it's like she's empty, emptier than she's been in a long time, so instead...
Peregrine wanders. She doesn't really know what to do with herself. This isn't— it's not like the other losses they've all shared here. Where she ends up, eventually, is at the edge of the woods. She stares out at them, looking more hollow than she has in her entire time here. ]
The lessons learned inside the woods Will cost you something dear. For when the paths at last unwind, And you have found some peace of mind, A part of you must stay behind, Forever in the woods...
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"Per, you gonna say you're sorry for some snow?"
She stays by his side, until she has to step away.
"Hey, do you wanna come with us to go see Howl tonight?"
It all comes crashing down.
Peregrine once again wakes up in Rodgers Dorm gasping in pain. She wakes up with tears in her eyes. She wakes up, finally, finally—
Knowing what it all cost.
In the end.
"This is the way the world actually works. There's no justice or karma or good or bad, it's just meaningless pain."
Despite it all.
"I feel like I'm this curse—"
It was luck.
"—like anything I touch or love—"
It was unearned luck.
"—is cursed and it's just gonna keep happening—"
And despite the few beautiful bits of hope she's let herself grasp onto—
"—again and again and again—"
Peregrine stays in bed, curled in her cloak and blankets, and she tries very, very hard not to let anyone hear her as she sobs.
She wants, very badly, to put her all into investigating. It's not storming, and the power's not on, and now more than ever they need to ban together and do everything they can to find a way out, to survive. But it's like she's empty, emptier than she's been in a long time, so instead...
Peregrine wanders. She doesn't really know what to do with herself. This isn't— it's not like the other losses they've all shared here. Where she ends up, eventually, is at the edge of the woods. She stares out at them, looking more hollow than she has in her entire time here. ]
The lessons learned inside the woods
Will cost you something dear.
For when the paths at last unwind,
And you have found some peace of mind,
A part of you must stay behind,
Forever in the woods...
[ Why? Why...won't it stop? ]