It's okay. And I know she'll always be with me, as long as I remember her. But you're right, it wouldn't be the same.

[ He leans forward, resting his chin on his hand. ]

...I've already lost her once. And I'm going to get her back. Finding her again is the last thing I remember from home, and I'll bring her back, I'm sure of it. [ There's no point in considering what will happen if he doesn't succeed. He will. He has to. ] But just the once hurt so much - I don't know if I could bear to ever go through that again.