...one of the girls came to me asking about the motive. It was the same one as this week, actually - a wish. I didn't even know why the Player wanted to do that, offer them a reward. She said it was for dramatic reasons...
[Kinda made his job a lot harder, but. He hadn't felt like it was his place to complain, no more than he's sure he can complain about his original show's direction now.]
I knew why she was asking me. I told her everything I knew - what would happen if she did, how she'd risk everyone's lives, how she'd probably end up dying for it herself. I said everything I could think of, to convince her not to act. I got angry. [But now, in the retelling, his voice is just hollow.] It didn't matter. She stabbed a man a couple nights later. Went down for it. I remember thinking - I tried my best, but you can only do so much when you're not - when you're like me. But now, here, I don't...know.
[He's a part of this story. If he'd been there on any of those nights, he could have freed Mumble, or protected Connor. Could he have stepped out of his role and done the same for Valjean? Or was the problem that he stepped out of his role to begin with?]
And now I realize - I was written to have my words fall on deaf ears, and to get shoved aside. Maybe that's a part of my nature. If I stayed in my place, and someone else were there, maybe they both would have lived.
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[Kinda made his job a lot harder, but. He hadn't felt like it was his place to complain, no more than he's sure he can complain about his original show's direction now.]
I knew why she was asking me. I told her everything I knew - what would happen if she did, how she'd risk everyone's lives, how she'd probably end up dying for it herself. I said everything I could think of, to convince her not to act. I got angry. [But now, in the retelling, his voice is just hollow.] It didn't matter. She stabbed a man a couple nights later. Went down for it. I remember thinking - I tried my best, but you can only do so much when you're not - when you're like me. But now, here, I don't...know.
[He's a part of this story. If he'd been there on any of those nights, he could have freed Mumble, or protected Connor. Could he have stepped out of his role and done the same for Valjean? Or was the problem that he stepped out of his role to begin with?]
And now I realize - I was written to have my words fall on deaf ears, and to get shoved aside. Maybe that's a part of my nature. If I stayed in my place, and someone else were there, maybe they both would have lived.