[The Balladeer sighs and leans his head back to rest against the bark of the tree. Sunlight's filtering down through the leaves, so utterly unlike anything he's known back home.]
Maybe. I know...I'd probably say the same thing, if we switched places. But...
[He swallows. This isn't really something he's said out loud to anyone else. He skirted the topic, with Maya, but she'd clearly remembered something terrible, and Benjamin remembered something worse, and how could he talk about his own feelings with all of that happening around him? Now, though, the garden is peaceful. Peregrine only came to hear him play, not for any horrible reason.]
The only reason I got away from there was because I went to the new show, the one like this. I did it because I thought I could keep people alive - but I couldn't. I think I was the wrong person for the job. Maybe if I just...accepted, the first time, that'd I couldn't do it....she'dve found someone else, and nobody would've died.
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Maybe. I know...I'd probably say the same thing, if we switched places. But...
[He swallows. This isn't really something he's said out loud to anyone else. He skirted the topic, with Maya, but she'd clearly remembered something terrible, and Benjamin remembered something worse, and how could he talk about his own feelings with all of that happening around him? Now, though, the garden is peaceful. Peregrine only came to hear him play, not for any horrible reason.]
The only reason I got away from there was because I went to the new show, the one like this. I did it because I thought I could keep people alive - but I couldn't. I think I was the wrong person for the job. Maybe if I just...accepted, the first time, that'd I couldn't do it....she'dve found someone else, and nobody would've died.