But it's... it's my fault. I... it was selfish. I shouldn't have...
[No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than these broken parts. Pretend I'm something other than this mess that I am. 'cause then I don't have to look at it and no one gets to look at it— no, no one can really see.]
... shouldn't have... given in.
[He's hiccoughing in between the words, shoulders shaking. You ever just simultaneously triggered and aware you're triggered so you're trying to stop your body from Doing That™? Yeah. He's maybe going through it.]
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[No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than
these broken parts.
Pretend I'm something other than
this mess that I am.
'cause then I don't have to look at it
and no one gets to look at it—
no, no one can really see.]
... shouldn't have... given in.
[He's hiccoughing in between the words, shoulders shaking. You ever just simultaneously triggered and aware you're triggered so you're trying to stop your body from Doing That™? Yeah. He's maybe going through it.]