However, Varian...I think what should perhaps consider is that there are several people here who would happily shoulder any emotion you wanted to show. They would do so without ever thinking it a burden; indeed, to be allowed to help others through their own emotional struggles is a gift, because it shows trust. Who you choose to give that trust to is, of course, a choice you have to make, however...I don't believe you need to withhold your own emotions in such a terrible situation for fear of burdening others who care about you.

Myself included.