I can understand the intent behind such an action. Truly. The wish to not burden anyone when they are dealing with their own difficulties.
[It's is a far better reason than "if I show any emotion, someone might use it against me" that Salieri himself has learned in Court. But this...is not Court. Perhaps the Wizard or whomever is controlling this entire circus would like it to be so, but at the end of the day, it is not. From what Salieri has seen for the most part, these are good people. People who would not use someone's emotions against them, especially those of a child. He has only been here a little less than two weeks, and yet, Salieri feels closer with these people than he does even Rosenberg or the Emperor himself and moreover, he trusts them. For better or for worse.
So...here, showing emotion is perhaps not only alright, but a far better path. It is something that, upon brief reflection, he has already been doing. He thinks of Benjamin, of their easy friendship, of how completely he trusts the man and his good heart. He thinks of Orpheus and his sweet disposition and steady, strong Eurydice who loves him (and he, her;) the Balladeer with his almost child-like openness to learn and talk; Maya, whose determination and drive guide a caring and kind heart. He thinks of Angus and Cassandra and Elle and Elsa, in whose presence and conversation he finds a surprising ease and comfort; of Spongebob, and his earnest charisma that even Salieri can't find within himself to dislike.
He thinks of the children brought here: Connor, Janis, Rina, Farrah, Peregrine and Varian, taken from their homes and yet still doing what they can to keep going. He especially thinks of Farrah and Varian; of how he feels like he wants to do whatever he can for them.
He thinks of Hester, who made him tea, and who had been so clearly upset during the trial. He even thinks of Discord, of his clear discontent at the trial--of (to Salieri's surprise) his helpfulness, his discomfort at the entire situation. Salieri would've though he would revel in this chaos; instead, though he certainly did his best to hide it, he was clearly unhappy with the situation, even speaking out with the others when the SQUIP went far too far.
Finally, he thinks of Mumble, and of Sissi. He misses them both terribly, suddenly. Mumble was such a kind, bright, positive person who had done his best to be friendly and familiar to everyone. Sissi, especially, he had felt a certain kinship towards, being of Vienna and of the Court. It hurts, now, to think especially of her. To know have put so much of his own feelings into that relationship, and now she's gone. Yet, he wouldn't trade this pain he feels now for the loss of any affection he feels towards her; that was built through all of their conversations and time spent together.
Without even realizing it, in the last two weeks he's come to care for these people far more than anyone else in the last several years back home.
This isn't home. There's no need to treat it like it is, and so...he won't]
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I can understand the intent behind such an action. Truly. The wish to not burden anyone when they are dealing with their own difficulties.
[It's is a far better reason than "if I show any emotion, someone might use it against me" that Salieri himself has learned in Court. But this...is not Court. Perhaps the Wizard or whomever is controlling this entire circus would like it to be so, but at the end of the day, it is not. From what Salieri has seen for the most part, these are good people. People who would not use someone's emotions against them, especially those of a child. He has only been here a little less than two weeks, and yet, Salieri feels closer with these people than he does even Rosenberg or the Emperor himself and moreover, he trusts them. For better or for worse.
So...here, showing emotion is perhaps not only alright, but a far better path. It is something that, upon brief reflection, he has already been doing. He thinks of Benjamin, of their easy friendship, of how completely he trusts the man and his good heart. He thinks of Orpheus and his sweet disposition and steady, strong Eurydice who loves him (and he, her;) the Balladeer with his almost child-like openness to learn and talk; Maya, whose determination and drive guide a caring and kind heart. He thinks of Angus and Cassandra and Elle and Elsa, in whose presence and conversation he finds a surprising ease and comfort; of Spongebob, and his earnest charisma that even Salieri can't find within himself to dislike.
He thinks of the children brought here: Connor, Janis, Rina, Farrah, Peregrine and Varian, taken from their homes and yet still doing what they can to keep going. He especially thinks of Farrah and Varian; of how he feels like he wants to do whatever he can for them.
He thinks of Hester, who made him tea, and who had been so clearly upset during the trial. He even thinks of Discord, of his clear discontent at the trial--of (to Salieri's surprise) his helpfulness, his discomfort at the entire situation. Salieri would've though he would revel in this chaos; instead, though he certainly did his best to hide it, he was clearly unhappy with the situation, even speaking out with the others when the SQUIP went far too far.
Finally, he thinks of Mumble, and of Sissi. He misses them both terribly, suddenly. Mumble was such a kind, bright, positive person who had done his best to be friendly and familiar to everyone. Sissi, especially, he had felt a certain kinship towards, being of Vienna and of the Court. It hurts, now, to think especially of her. To know have put so much of his own feelings into that relationship, and now she's gone. Yet, he wouldn't trade this pain he feels now for the loss of any affection he feels towards her; that was built through all of their conversations and time spent together.
Without even realizing it, in the last two weeks he's come to care for these people far more than anyone else in the last several years back home.
This isn't home. There's no need to treat it like it is, and so...he won't]