That's why I said it was stupid. But I don't know if I'd realize it in that situation. I was... so desperate to get him to connect with me again that I might have gone that far for, for someone who had too much control over me in the first place.

[It wasn't the same with Riley. Riley hadn't manipulated Mephisto. She'd been hiding things, but that didn't mean she wasn't herself. But with Jeremy...]

I. I still don't know if how I felt about him was my own choice or just something left over from when the SQUIP had control over me. It makes it even harder to grieve.